"Every child comes with the message that God is not yet discouraged of us."- One Tree Hill
Its obvious for those of you who know me that I'll throw a One Tree Hill quote out there any chance I get, but this time it is serious. This is a blog post that is very near and dear to my heart. This is a blog post about the most beautiful thing in life that God has given us, the ability to create new life.
I am not a mother, but I admire them. (I was raised by an amazing one:) I admire the sacrifices my mom made for me and my sisters and I admire my sisters for all that they do for their little ones. I admire the fact that they give up their bodies to provide life for us. They get to experience what it is like to have a life growing inside of them, and get to experience what it is like to bring someone into this world.
It truly amazes and inspires me when I see new babies being born. When I held my nephew Daniel for the first time I instantly fell in love, he was a part of my sister so in turn he was a part of me. He stole my heart the second his eyes met mine and holding him made me feel like the world stood still. He was so little, so innocent, so pure. He had his entire world ahead of him. It also amazed me that just minutes before he was inside my sister. I never knew what it was like to feel so happy. I felt the "glow" that all the mothers talk about and I didn't even have him. The fact that he was brought into this world from the love that my sister and brother-in-law share was something that truly had me in such a happy state. I didn't know it was possible to love someone in such an instant. I didn't even know him until that moment he was in my arms and I truly felt like my heart was stolen. My heart belonged to Daniel. And only two and a half short months later God and my other sister and brother-in-law blessed me with Jaxon. I was really in for it.
My heart was stolen by TWO boys. Two adorable, handsome boys. Two boys who deserve all my love. Jaxon came the day before my 21st birthday and no gift could have been given to me greater. Seeing Jaxon and holding him in my arms for the first time was another breathtaking experience. I was overwhelmed and so happy and so proud of my sister for pushing out all 9lbs of him! I started making all these plans for the adventures that Jaxon and Daniel and I would share. I thought I have such a duty now in life as their Aunt to be a great example and to be there for them in what ever way I can possibly be. I never knew what it truly meant like to be proud. I was so proud of my sisters and brother-in-laws for creating such beautiful life and I was so proud of my nephews and I still am. I see that they are getting bigger every day and growing and talking more and being away from them is the hardest part about being away in college. But I also know that by me going away to school it will be an example for them one day and I can tell them stories about the times I had in college and encourage them to want to one day attend as well. Now my sisters and brother-in-laws are blessed again with each of them being able to bring into this world another little baby. My heart is overflowed with joy. Babies are truly a blessing. I know so many couples out there who are finally getting their dreams fulfilled and being able to experience the miracle that my sisters and brother-in-laws have experienced and that makes me so happy. The gift of life is one that God truly blesses us with and tonight (which could be one of the main reasons why I'm so inspired to write this) I watched the movie "What to Expect When Your Expecting" and one part tugged at my heart, Jennifer Lopez' character can't have babies, she breaks down to her husband and said it is her fault and that tore me up. They end up being able to be blessed with adopting a baby and they both said that they were scared and her husband in the movie said something to the effect of I will love this baby because I love his mom so much. That touched me so much. My heart truly breaks for those deserving couples out there that I love and I know will be great parents but can't conceive children. It also breaks my heart for the children who are born with parents who don't want them. Every child is a gift and has purpose in this life and every child deserves to have great parents. Another One Tree Hill quote because it is also very fitting for this topic, Julian says to Brooke his wife after they find out they can't conceive says the perfect thing "I think about what my life was like before I found you, who I was and how I was, and it is so much better now.I know there's a child out there for us,one we'll look at and think, "how could we have ever gone through life without this?" And they'll look at us, and they'll know they are loved and wanted and needed. And they'll know we searched for them...Like I searched for you."
The gift of life is so precious and babies are miracles God placed on this earth and each and every one of us is a miracle that God graced earth with. Every child needs love, just like every one of us needs love. God has a plan for each and every one of us, remember to thank Him for all the miracles in your life He has placed around you. With all the hate and anger we build up in our hearts we should all be a little more like babies, they don't know the bad in the world and they see the good in every body. When my nephews were born they inspired me to look at life differently, they inspired me to realize that family is important and the people you surround yourself with is important and the way you live your life and the example you leave behind is important. We all fall short, we are human so therefore we are imperfect, but remember,
"Every child comes with the message that God is not yet discouraged of us."- One Tree Hill
