Close your eyes and clone yourself
Build your heart an army
To defend your innocence
While you do everything wrong
This first part is so fitting in my life. In the past five years of my life I've been headed toward reaching the goal of graduation, and in this quest, I have stumbled, a lot. I have had my innocence used against me and have had to learn to build my heart an army. I love the line, "while you do everything wrong" because there are so many moments in the past five years when I've been so certain of myself, so certain that I was doing everything right in order to find out that I was doing everything wrong. Looking back I realize now that it is alright to do the wrong things, the best way to grow is to learn and try things out.
Don't be scared to walk alone
Don't be scared to like it
There's no time that you must be home
So sleep where darkness falls
The past two years I've lived in Nevada and it has been an opportunity that has changed my life in so many ways. I love my family and friends back home more than I could have even imagined and being apart from them made me realize it, but it also made me happy I made the choice to come here because I got the opportunity to walk alone. To grow and learn and figure out who I am. In the past two years I have been blessed to have my cousins as roommates and friends by my side while I've been up here. I know it may seem crazy to some people that I've spent the past two years "alone" without a boyfriend, and honestly it did scare me being on my own, and I was scared that I would never find someone, or that I was never going to be with that one person to make me complete, but in my quest up here I realized, that is not what I needed, I needed to learn how to walk alone, and I learned that I like it. I've been getting so emotional lately with graduation approaching and summer school going to be ending in mid-June on campus and thinking that my time left in Nevada may be drawing near quickly. The line "there's no time that you must be home" really spoke to me, because I've always had these deadlines and checklists growing up and timelines, I don't have a time that I have to be back home, I know I want to go back home, and be with the people I love and cherish but leaving this life does tend to scare me too.
Alive in the age of worry
Smile in the age of worry
Go wild in the age of worry
And say, "Worry, why should I care?"
These lines really stick out to me, "the age of worry" I can't stress it enough how much I know not only me, but people in my age range worry so much. I obviously know that as we will start our careers and families that the worry will not go away, and may grow in different ways, but right now in the age of worry, we are worried about if we will get a job when we graduate, if we will be able to meet the right person we want to spend the rest of our lives with, we worry about how we are going to pay off our student loans and how long it is doing to take us, we worry about money in general, we worry about midterms and finals, we worry about job interviews and finding the perfect company to work for. WE WORRY. I know I talk about not worrying a lot, but this is the age when we find ourselves doing it more and realizing it more and its the age when we realize how easy life was five years ago. I love that it says, to be alive, smile and go wild and say worry why should I care?
Know your fight is not with them
Yours is with your time here
Dream your dreams but don't pretend
Make friends with what you are In the past five years I have lost parts of me, and there have been moments when I've gotten so angry or hurt or wasted time thinking that the people who had "wronged" me were to blame with how I was, that I was the victim of their lies or cheating or whatever drama may have unfolded, but my fight was never with them. My fight was how to handle the situations I was placed in. I was pretending that I was a victim, I was helpless, I was letting my perspective on situations be clouded by feelings I had, I was letting people have control over the way I was feeling and not choosing my actions myself. There were times in the past five years when I felt on top of the world, times when I felt loved, times when I felt heartbroken, times when I felt worthless, times when I felt defeated, times when I felt angry, times when I felt beat down, you get the picture. It wasn't until this past year when I started becoming friends with myself and realizing that I can only control how I feel and react to situations and I can only control who I am as a person, and the person that I am, I need to be friends with.
Give your heart then change your mind
You're allowed to do it
'Cause God knows it's been done to you
And somehow you got through it This verse is golden. This verse can be used with about any person in my age group. It is okay to give your heart away, and in the past five years I have done that and I did also change my mind. In both of those times, I was heartbroken, and although it hurt me, and I knew I was going to be hurting someone else, I knew that it was something I had to do. And somehow I got through it. I've learned that there can be good in goodbye, that there is light past the darkness and that the heartbreak won't last forever. Don't be afraid to change your mind, now is the time to do it.
Alive in the age of worry
Rage in the age of worrySing out in the age of worry
And say, "Worry, why should I care?" As my college days are slipping away, I need to feel more alive, rage and sing out because my chapter will be closing quickly and before I know it college will be over. The past five years I've learned a lot and its crazy to think that what I've worked towards in obtaining my Bachelor's Degree is almost here. These years have flown by, and they aren't going to start going any slower, so why not be alive, rage, and sing out? Worry I don't care. And as the final lines of the song say "Worry, get out of here!"
Rage in the age of worry
Act your age in the age of worry
And say, "Worry, get out of here!"
