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Sometimes I wonder why I let myself get to where I was. 

I wonder why I let it be acceptable to just get by.

I wonder why I drank too much and ate too much crap.

I wonder why I couldn't get my stuff all together.

Slowly but surely I'm working through all my wonder and erasing the person that I was and being the person that I'm meant to be.

A happier version of me.

A healthier version of me.

A more confident version of me.

A more motivated version of me.

I saw this pin on pinterest and it was "How to be attractive in 9 easy steps"

1.Smile- usually I have no problem doing that, but more and more my smile seems to be brighter and much more genuine than ever before.

2.Smell nice or don't smell at all-this one is funny but oh so very true, so I took all the lotions that I never use and put those on every day with a squirt of my perfume for an additional good smelly touch.

3. Dress for style and respect, not attention- By working my internship and having to dress business casual every day I've found more respect in my appearance and I put for the effort in making sure that I do look good, and not over the top attention seeking.

4. Know what is going on in the world and have an opinion about it-This one is something I'm going to have to start putting in some effort and time into because I NEVER watch the news, but it would be a more grown up thing for me to do to actually know what is going on in our world.

5. Speak kindly of yourself and those around you- I had a break down moment a few weeks back where I spoke very negatively about myself and my body, it was a breaking moment for me and I turned that negativity into positivity and haven't looked back since, I now only say good things about myself and I am always kind to everyone and try not to talk bad about anyone.

6. Have three hobbies that don't involve a screen- this was also part of my wake up moment when I realized so much I do involves screens, so now my hobbies I decided take part in is running 5ks (I want to do 5 of them by this time next year...at least), Going to the gym and letting off all my frustrations and worries and truly clear my mind and lastly, my hobby is cooking, I'm trying to eat "Clean" and in doing so I need to start getting creative in what I make so cooking is going to be a new hobby of mine.

7. Get an education or save up for one- I already am on the final semester completing my Bachelor's Degree and I'm seriously considering attending grad school, maybe not any time soon, but it is a possibility in my future!

8. Make time for children, the elderly and those who need a friend-Being an aunt is one of the greatest things about my life, I love my nieces and nephews with all of my heart, and spending time with them is so fulfilling and warms my heart, also I am blessed to have 4 grandparents and getting to spend time with them is also very heart warming and fulfilling. And I am doing my best to lend a better ear and not give my 2 cents about everything someone comes to me with, but I want to be that person a stranger could feel like they could tell their problems to.

9. Always say thank you and return favors-fortunately this one is not so hard to accomplish, because its more of maintaining how I already am. My parents raised me in a home where we say please and thank you and always help those out who are in need and especially those who have helped us before.

--These nine steps opened up my eyes and not just that, its just where I'm at in this moment in my life I'm truly happy and honestly I've never felt better. The only way you can be the best version of yourself is to wake up every morning, be thankful to God and strive to do all you can do. Take care of yourself, love yourself and above all love God.

Never Had I Ever

Never had I ever planned on going to the University of Nevada, Reno.

Never had I ever thought I'd live in Tahoe.

Never had I ever thought I would go into the Human Resources field.

Never had I ever thought I could land an internship which involved all three of the things I've previously mentioned.

This summer I have been given an opportunity that is so rewarding. I am interning with a company who is globally respected and known and I get to learn more about the field of Human Resources while getting the last credits I need to graduate.

The plans I had would have never led me to think I would be where I am but that is what is so great about God. God knows His plan for each one of us and He brings us through experiences that don't make sense at the time and then end up leading us to a perfect fit.

I have had many different jobs, each of my jobs has benefited me in some way to work in Human Resources, I just never made the connection before.

I have taken so many college courses, but it wasn't until two of my final semesters that Human Resources had been brought up. And the courses I have taken although may not have directly been HR classes, they helped me learn more about communicating with people and about business.

I have always thought that Tahoe was a beautiful place, and had dreamt that I would live here one day when I was retired and had a whole bunch of money so I could afford to buy a place up here. I didn't think that I would be renting a small studio and be less than 10 minutes from the lake.

Trust in God's plan for you, because I never thought I would end up where I am, and honestly, I've never been happier.

Plan D

Plan A. How often in our lives do we actually get the thing we were planning on?

This weekend my best friend had planned for us to go to Chicago, we were going to watch Luke Bryan in the front row and explore the city. That was our Plan A.

Plan A was ruined because of the computer system overbooking the tickets to the concert and putting us many rows away from Luke so we had the option for Plan B, to sit in mediocre seats and explore the city.

Plan B didn't sound as good with all the money that was going to be spent and the experience not going to be the same so for my weekend I needed a Plan C.

Plan C was to take my best friend on a road trip to let our Chicago Blues get out of our heads and fill our hearts with happiness and adventure.That plan had to be changed because the staff at the hospital was short and my best friend got called into work. Completely understanding her situation I switched to plan D, to still go home any way and spend the weekend with family. 

This weekend with my family was so special to me. On Friday I woke up at my sister's house because my nephew had invited me to spend the night with him that previous night. I got to spend the morning with my nephew, niece and sister. I got to spend time with my other sister, and my niece and nephew at her house and then got to have lunch with both of my sisters together. I also got to see my grandma who has been in a rehabilitation facility for a long time while she tries to gain back her strength. While visiting I gave her pictures from my graduation and a thank you card and her reaction was so special and the moment we shared was priceless. I got to ride on fair rides that night with my nephews and see their faces light up and hear them laugh. I got to see my cousins and their friends who I haven't seen in so long. I got to see my aunt and uncle and my cousin and her boyfriend and spend some time with them catching up. I got to around the fair with just my parents and ride with them to and from the fair and share in some great conversation. I got to hold my beautiful nieces and see them smile and laugh as well. I also got to see my brother-in-laws and share time with them and my sisters at the fair that night. I went to bed that night feeling so blessed. The weekend continued to get better from that Friday, I got to spend the morning with my cousin, her boyfriend, and my grandma and then all afternoon with my dad. I then spent time with my parents watching a movie and eating dinner then spent the rest of the night with my best friend. Ending the night talking with my cousin who is in Spain. I ended this great family-filled weekend with spending father's day with my dad, mom, sisters, brother in laws and nieces and nephews. I also was excited because I got to see my aunt, uncle and cousins. On my way back up to Tahoe it just dawned on me that without fail, God always finds ways to bring me back.

He brings me back into perspective. He shows me that I'm not the one who is supposed to be making the plans, I'm supposed to be willing to open my heart and mind and listen to what He wants me to do. I'm sure if my best friend and I would have went to Chicago it would have been an unforgettable experience. But simply hanging out with her and my family this weekend was such a huge blessing and made me realize even more that the simple moments in life can be unforgettable and can be filled with beauty and happiness.