Ready For It

I known in my blogs I have talked about timing, and especially about God's timing but while on Pinterest I saw a pin that stuck out to me that Ashley Martin Posted.

Reading it connected everything I've been thinking about the last month. I had wrote a blog about my year of "doing" and last year being the year of "learning" well the reason why it took me a year to learn is because I needed to be ready to learn how to do. I needed to learn how to let myself be open again. I needed to allow myself to laugh, really laugh. I needed to talk to people in my classes. I needed to just do more than be at home or work. Those were all things I so badly wanted and thought I needed to happen. The craziest part about it all was that I knew I needed them but I didn't realize when I did I wasn't ready to receive them yet. When my heart broke along with my trust it took me some time. I wanted to be okay, I wanted to allow myself to be happy and to go enjoy the world and explore. I knew that God wouldn't keep me out of this wonderful life and keep the great things in life away from me, and times when my faith seemed low felt like nothing good was going to happen, but I wasn't ready to get it. I wasn't ready to appreciate it and put it to good use. I was unmotivated and lacking drive and passion. Once I turned 22 it was rather strange the spark that flew inside of me. I truly thought that this is my time. That there was no better time to start living life than at that very moment. And it seemed like in that very instant I was ready. I'm ready for adventure, risks, meeting new people, getting involved, going out on weekends and just being my age! God does truly have the perfect timing because I feel like the past month so many great things have been falling into place. I have already made some nice friends at school and I have been doing things on weekends and I've been laughing! Laughing so much and it feels so good, and my laughter is that kind of laugh that is felt inside the soul. I'm smiling more and appreciating everything more. I'm trying to be a better friend and family member. So you might be stuck in a dark place and it seems like you can't get out of it and you think you never will shake the sadness or pain that you feel, but that doesn't mean it will never happen like the quote says, it just means you aren't ready for it. I think we all need our time to cope, to reflect and to let go. In order to move on in life I think we must forgive, stop dwelling, stop blaming, and start living the life God has planned for us. Don't lose faith, one day you will realize you are stronger than you think and your past will no longer be the black cloud over your head, you will see the sunshine and feel the warmth of life!